Healing is not a one-time event…

For much of my life, I felt lost—constantly searching for something I could never find. I battled addiction for eight years, caught in a continuous cycle of shame, regret, and self-doubt. I believed I was destined to fail, defined by my past mistakes. I convinced myself that I was beyond redemption. I lived in constant worry and isolation, never trusting that a better life was possible.

At my lowest point, I ended up in Penobscot County Jail, four and a half months pregnant, where I spent three months. Being in jail was terrifying, but it forced me to confront my choices and reflect on the life I was creating for myself and my child. That experience became the turning point I desperately needed. I cried out for a second chance, not knowing exactly what that would look like, but determined not to continue down the path I had been on.

After my release, I entered Wellspring Infinity House, where I stayed for four months and graduated from their program. The support, structure, and guidance I received there was life changing. For the first time, I learned how to rebuild my life, manage my emotions, and set healthy boundaries. The staff and peers held me accountable, celebrated every step forward, and reminded me that my past did not define me.

Following Wellspring, I moved into the Godparent’s Home, a shelter for women and children. Living there gave me the stability to focus on recovery while caring for my child. It was a safe space to heal, reflect, and establish routines. I began to understand the importance of self-care, accountability, and faith in guiding my decisions. In this environment, I realized my journey had a purpose beyond survival—I wanted to help others facing similar struggles.

Since then, my life has changed in ways I could not have predicted. I’ve been sober for three years and have built a life filled with hope, resilience, and gratitude. If someone had told me three years ago that this would be my life, I would never have believed it. I could not have imagined waking up without fear, feeling proud of myself, or finding joy in the small victories.

Recovery has not been easy. There have been times of doubt, stress, and emotional struggle, but if you are on this path, remember that every challenge is an opportunity to grow stronger. Be patient with yourself, and don’t be afraid to ask for help. Healing is not a one-time event; it’s a daily commitment. Stay connected, stay honest, and trust that change is possible.

Today, I am a present, loving mother. I have relationships built on trust and honesty. I give back to women navigating the path I once walked, sharing my story, and showing them that change is possible. Life still has its challenges, but I no longer face them alone. My journey is proof that even in the darkest moments, healing and transformation are possible.